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(no subject) [Jul. 28th, 2009|05:45 pm]
danaealexandra
woah, damn, sorry guys...that was definitly supposed to be a private post, although you mine as well know and i really do appreciate your thoughts. i just don't want certain people to know certain things...cough cough that whole crush thing...therefore it's now private.
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(no subject) [Jan. 30th, 2009|12:07 pm]
danaealexandra
Be honest, who has texted you today?
i don't have texting

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
no one

Two days from now this time, where will you be?
sleeping at home

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
chris has some feelings, what kind exactly i'm not sure

Who was the first person you talked to today?
my mom

How late did you stay up last night?
not sure, i couldn't sleep

Do you smoke weed every day?
no

Could you go a month without cursing?
maybe if i really tried

Have you ever ridden a horse?
yes

You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
water

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
exactly the fucking same...maybe slightly more independent

Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?
yes, no apologies are good enough

Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
chris brown, lisa

When's the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone?
yesterday

Do you think you are a good person?
sometimes

What will you be doing in 3 hours?
still working

Do you miss the way things used to be?
yes

Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?
yes

Have you held hands with anyone in the past 24 hours?
no

Are you patient person?
depends on what i'm being patient about

Where is your significant other at the moment?
work

Did your last kiss mean anything?
"of course it 'meant' something. always does. it means i feel affectionate towards someone... pretty sure thats a universal concept"

Has someone smacked your butt in the past week?
no, thank god

How do you feel when someone kisses you on the forehead?
i love it

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
yes

Are you afraid of death/dying?
yes

How's your heart lately?
not well

If you're being extremely quiet what’s it mean?
i'm tired

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
hells yes

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
it depends on how tired i am

Have you ever given a random person your number?
no

What do you think your number 1 is doing right now?
he's working

Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
n/a

What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed?
christmas lights/panda bear

Who would be the first person to know if you got pregnant?
chris

What is something you just don’t understand?
men

Do you care what others think about you?
yes

What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
spring

Honestly, what's on your mind right now?
i'm lonely

What's on your bedroom floor?
books, pillows, my clothes, chris's clothes, empty pill bottles

What color hoodie did you wear last?
grey

When did you last go to the beach?
curacao (honeymoon)
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2 steps forward and 3 steps back [Jan. 29th, 2009|12:35 pm]
danaealexandra
[music |tiny vessels- death cab for cutie]

i need purely to complain right now.

my car needs a new alternator and we don't have the money so i'm stuck begging for rides to work.

my step-mom and baby brother are moving to missouri for 2 years. leaving my dad here by himself. damn military. they leave at the beginning of may.

i've lost my naive faith in men. unfortunately, including chris. (this is probably the most upsetting current problem)
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(no subject) [Jan. 26th, 2009|03:17 pm]
danaealexandra
how do you stop believing in something you've wanted your whole life?
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(no subject) [Jan. 23rd, 2009|11:40 am]
danaealexandra
"Making love was never about you and me in a bed. We made love whenever we held hands."
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(no subject) [Jan. 22nd, 2009|02:24 pm]
danaealexandra
i'm only 19 and i've forgotten how this feels.


where am I?

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(no subject) [Dec. 22nd, 2008|04:32 pm]
danaealexandra
I fire myself ten times a day
I throw myself in a watery grave
With fourteen horses on top of my head
I hear the voice again and again

I walk through the everlasting pit
By the mountain of fire and the fountain of spit
The pilgrims beside me just talk talk talk
I am the goblin and the mangled hawk

Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
A demon lured me to his bed
Where I fell into a poison sleep
I dreamed of a river of ants inside me
And they were sad and started to bleed

In the dawn the demon spoke
In the saddest voice, in the saddest voice
He said, "Can you see love through a telescope?"
The end of fear, and the beginning of hope
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(no subject) [Dec. 19th, 2008|12:20 pm]
danaealexandra
"Shake That"
(feat. Nate Dogg)

[Intro - Eminem ]

Shady, Aftermath
There she goes shaking that ass on the floor
Bumpin and grindin that pole
The way she's grindin that pole
I think I'm losing control

[Verse 1 - Eminem]

Get buzzed, get drunk, get crunked, get fucked up
Hit the strip club don't forget ones get your dick rubbed
Get fucked, get sucked, get wasted, shit faceted
Pasted, blasted, puke drink up, get a new drink
Hit the bathroom sink, throw up
Wipe your shoe clean, got a routine
Knowing still got a few chunks on your shoestring
Showing I was dehydrated till the beat vibrated
I was revibed as soon as this Bitch gyrated
And hips and licked them lips and that was it
I had to get Nate Dogg here to sing some shit

[Verse 2 - Nate Dogg]

Two to the one from the one to the three
I like good pussy and I like good trees
Smoke so much weed you wouldn't believe
And I get more ass than a toilet seat
Three to the one from the one to the three
I met a bad bitch last night in the D
Let me tell you how I made her leave with me
Conversation and Hennessey
I've been to the motherfucking mountain top
Heard motherfuckers talk, seen 'em drop
If I ain't got a weapon I'ma pick up a rock
And when I bust yo ass I'm gonna continue to rock
Get you ass of the wall with your two left feet
It's real easy just follow the beat
Don't let that fine girl pass you by
Look real close cause strobe lights lie

[Verse 3 - Nate Dogg]

We bout to have a party (turn the music up)
Let's get it started (Go head shake your butt)
I'm looking for a girl with a body and a sexy strut
Wanna get it poppin baby step right up
Some girls they act retarded
Some girls are bout it bout it
I'm looking for a girl that will do whatever the fuck
I say everyday she be giving it up

[Chorus - Nate Dogg]

Shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Come on girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Oh girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Come on girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me

[Verse 4 - Eminem]

I'm a menace, a dentist, an oral hygienist
Open your mouth for about four or five minutes
Take a little bit of this fluoride rinse
Swish but don't spit it, swallow and I'll finish
Yeah me and Nate d-o double g
Looking for a couple bitches with some double d's
Pop a little champagne and a couple E's
Slip it in her bubbuly, we finna finna have a party

[Verse 5 - Nate Dogg]

Have a party (turn the music up)
Let's get it started (Go head shake your butt)
I'm looking for a girl I can fuck in my hummer truck
Apple Bottom jeans and a big Ol' butt
Some girls they act retarded
Some girls are bout it bout it
I want a bitch that sit at the crib with no panties on
Knows that she can but she won't say no
Now look at this lady all in front of me, sexy as can be
Tonight I want a slut, will you be mine?
I heard you was freaky from a friend of mine

[Bridge - Eminem]

Now I hope you don't get mad at me
But I told Nate you was a freak
He said he wants a slut, hope you don't mind
I told him how you like it from behind

[Chorus - Nate Dogg]

Shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
C'mon girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
Oh girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
C'mon girl, shake that ass for me, shake that ass for me
We bout' to have a party (turn the music up)
Let's get it started (go ahead shake your butt)
I'm looking for a girl with a body and a sexy strut
Wanna get it poppin baby step right up
Some girls they act retarded
Some girls are bout it bout it
I'm looking for a girl that will do whatever the fuck
I say everyday she be giving it up

[Outro - Eminem]

There she goes, shaking that ass on the floor
Bumpin and grindin that pole
The way she's grindin that pole
I think I'm losing control

God, come one

[Eminem makes noises]

I ain't leavin' without you bitch

Coming home with me

And my boy, and his boy, and his boy, and his girl

ha ha, Nate Dogg

[deep breathing]
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(no subject) [Nov. 21st, 2008|05:48 pm]
danaealexandra


lol, stupid, stupid fox news
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Writer's Block: Oh, but it’s cold outside! [Nov. 20th, 2008|11:49 am]
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"Oh, but it's cold outside!" It's a fact of life that the economic climate is a bit chilly this holiday season. Is that affecting how you're doing your holiday shopping?
no, we've always been broke!
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(no subject) [Nov. 6th, 2008|01:40 pm]
danaealexandra
Barfly- Gien Hansard & Marqetta Irglova


that song is what love feels like (to me)
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(no subject) [Nov. 6th, 2008|12:38 pm]
danaealexandra


I want to make this dress......out of metal and gold spray paint...and beads and insanity

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(no subject) [Oct. 24th, 2008|03:58 pm]
danaealexandra
bleh, i keep asking myself is it worth it?

we stand to gain so much with that house. it would be so nice!

we'd lose so much if we sold it right now. bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.
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stolen from needlewoman [Oct. 14th, 2008|03:16 pm]
danaealexandra
You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.
Not as easy as you might think. Remember: one word answers.
1. Where is your mobile phone? pocket
2. Your significant other? adoarable
3. Your hair? gross
4. Your mother? sad
5. Your father? happy
6. Your favorite thing? art
7. Your dream last night? none
8. Your favorite drink? tea
9. Your dream/goal? dresses
10. The room you're in? office
11. Your ex? weird
12. Your fear? me
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? happy
14. Where were you last night? home
15. What you're not? full
16. Muffins? Please? bran
17. One of your wish list items? time
18. Where you grew up? minot
19. The last thing you did? work
20. What are you wearing? nastys
21. Your TV? good
22. Your pets? depressed
23. Your computer? viruses
24. Your life? busy
25. Your mood? stressed
26. Missing someone? nope
27. Your car? smashed
28. Something you're not wearing? jewelry
29. Favorite Store? urban
30. Your summer? gone
31. Like someone? yes
32. Your favorite color? blue
33. When is the last time you laughed? hours
34. Last time you cried? later
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Costume To Do List [Oct. 14th, 2008|01:02 pm]
danaealexandra
In no particular order...

Batman Returns - Michelle Pfeiffer - Catwoman


The Dark Knight - Heath Ledger - The Joker

Sleepy Hollow - Johnny Depp - Icabod


Star Wars Episode II: Attack of the Clones - Natalie Portman - Padme Amidala - Robe and Nightgown


Moulin Rouge - Nicole Kidman – Satine - Gothic Tower Gown


Gaslight-Ingrid Bergman- Paula Alquist- Going Out Gown

 

POTC - Keira Knightley - Elizabath Swann - Robe and Nightgown

"Rum Island" Shift

Wedding Gown

 

Marie Antoinette - Kirsten Dunst - Marie Antoinette - Lamb Chemise Gown




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(no subject) [Oct. 8th, 2008|05:57 pm]
danaealexandra

We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

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(no subject) [Oct. 3rd, 2008|04:41 pm]
danaealexandra
[music |Damien Rice - La Professor & La Fille Danse]

Chris and I are moving into an apartment next Friday. It's AWESOME. I'm a huge fan! Tons of closet space, adorable/weird nook, bathroom with a tub AND walls AND a door! I'm pretty excited. I wouldn't mind being planted there for a while. I just wanna chill out and be happy for a while with no worries. Just do some of the things I've wanted to for so long. I'm sick of never being planted or stable, here's my chance. My goal in LIFE is to keep it nice. We're keeping the house so we don't have to decide what exactly we want to keep and what we don't just yet, we've got plenty of time to decide. We'll only bring the things we REALLY REALLY want and hopefully get rid of the rest.

My dad said I can have the piano from the green house, which is cool, except moving it from that house to our new apt. would be a total whore and then we'd have to move it out too, which would also suck, but it would be so cool to have a piano again and be able to play only things I want to only when I want to. Basically it'd be Chris who'd have to figure moving it out and in and whatnot and he really doesn't want to and I think I remember hiring someone to move it being around $80...? That's not too bad...but twice? That kinda sucks....oh well.

I'm not a fan of school. I like Bill's class...but the drawing class I'm taking is so painful. I'm supposed to do sooo many sketches a week, its crazy. I would do it except its all contour drawing...which is cool to practice, but this much?? (the class is 3 hrs long twice a week and its all we've been doing since the beginning of the semester!!) I really want to take a break and just work and do my own projects. I used to think I should do school since it forces me to work, but I don't need to be forced to work! I've got plenty I want to do, I just need to earn the money to do it all! So I think next semester I'm just going to take it easy and work. All these things I want to do (costumes, re-inventing my wardrobe, etc.) cost money and I feel like I'm just wasting time taking classes and doing things I sorta want to do and not making money and not having time to do the things I really wanna do.
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(no subject) [Sep. 30th, 2008|01:39 pm]
danaealexandra
figured it out!

i was wondering why this wardrobe redo felt so sudden (like suddenly, i hate all my clothes?! weird! ok not ALL of them....) anyway, i'm all i need a new winter coat! one that actually fits and is attractive, yet also warm!

new jeans! they're all stretched out an sucky, eff you pacsun

more layery things....cardigans, sweaters! why do i only have one cardigan seriously?!

heels! mine are all very old and i never wear them and need to get rid of them! and when i say old i mean, like, junior high old...

anyway, i figured it out...i've been wanting to redo my style pretty much since san francisco, but when i came back from san fran i had moved in with chris...and felt guilty letting him by my personal pleasure items (like clothes that technically i didn't NEED [and still don't obviously!]) also never asked dad for anything (except those blasted pacsun jeans) because i was basically avoiding him because i felt guilty living with chris...and never asked mom for money because she's broke enough as it is/was(?)...and iiiiiiiiiiii was working like 2 or 3 hours per week with jess...i would be REALLY effing excited if i ever got a check for $100 in fact i determined when i got paid and i would usually wait until it'd been a month...so i was making like, $100 per month...which i was spending on well...god knows what? random things i guess...but not usually clothes that's for sure....sooooooooooo instead of slowly but surely changing my style over the last year (which would've been hella easier) i now hate everything i own....and need "all" new stuff...

this really isn't a crisis, but now it all makes sense to me!
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(no subject) [Sep. 25th, 2008|03:05 pm]
danaealexandra
feeling really chill...all i need to continue this mood is a nice space heater, a feather comforter, pair of shorts/sweats, a silk nightgown, a sweater, and some hot tea with honey....

mmm...

gonna get some homework done tonight. maybe a cuddle date with chris?
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raaaaaaaaadiohead-gagging order [Sep. 19th, 2008|04:20 pm]
danaealexandra
I know what you're thinking
But I'm not your property
No matter what you say
No matter what you say

Move along, there's nothing left to see
Just a body, nothing left to see

A couple more for breakfast
A little more for tea
Just to take the edge off
Just to take the edge off

Move along, there's nothing left to see
Just a body, pouring down the street

Move along, theres nothing left to see
Just a body, nothing left to see

Move along
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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2008|03:43 pm]
danaealexandra
i've discovered that my life thus far has been a series of obsessions

-cats
-anne rice
-sleeping beauty
-LOTR
-moulin rouge
-kill bill
-white oleander
-dance
-theater
-POTC-dress
-the joker costume
-the sims(?)
-teacup persian cats
-marie antoinette

i'll get crazy crazy obsessed for like, a couple weeks or so and then it will dwindle and something will trigger it again later...they're all (okay not all...) in the background of my everyday life waiting to be remembered. bold denotes current obsessions.

i feel like its time for me to move on to something.

i've felt really trapped for a long time and i can't take it anymore. if only, if only, if only.....

gawd, getting married cost SO much money, its really shocking.

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(no subject) [Sep. 13th, 2008|12:42 am]
danaealexandra
"what strange creatures men are."
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(no subject) [Sep. 4th, 2008|11:31 am]
danaealexandra
Peking Olympische Spiele 2008 - wie das Logo entstand

not that it matters now since the olympics are over anyway...
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(no subject) [Sep. 2nd, 2008|10:38 pm]
danaealexandra
I almost thought i saw the light.

I was almost done with being me until now.

I've reverted back to spring. this is who i am, there's no escaping it.

not a phase as i used to trick myself into thinking

solid like stone.

no butterflies for me.
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(no subject) [Jul. 23rd, 2008|04:21 pm]
danaealexandra
lets just pretend for a second that i dress in clothes that i like. that's it, that's all. no hidden meaning, except maybe so-and-so gave me this bracelet or so-and-so made this, or i made this....maybe i wear things i find interesting and (hopefully) flattering.

i think people deserve fair wage for their work. i think maybe clothing shouldn't be quite so disposable. but i love trying to show people who i am through what i wear. my heart is on my sleeve you might say. design is important to me. i want myself and my space to be asthetically pleasing. i can't change the world, but i can paint my walls, i can decorate my living room with cheap target furnature etc. am i a criminal? am i evil? am i supporting something i disagree with? its all so much to think about. i just want a shelf! i'm buried under it. i wish people weren't as angry and i wish they wouldn't kill each other and take advantage of each other, but i'm only responsible for myself. i personally won't kill someone i will try to live and let live and make people happy....but how can i keep track of all my steps? i live in nodak, i don't make very much money...i'm getting married, what money i do make goes there. i support wal-mart, wal-mart supports ridiculously low paying factories. i am now supporting people who barely pay their employees enough to function, if that. but wait, if everyone stops shopping at wal-mart (that'll be the day) what will these people do who needed that factory job? now they have no job? is this better? oh i see...the goal is to pressure wal-mart into getting its factory people to pay their people more....right?

so am i a selfish bitch? i hate that wanting to express myself (inexpensively) through what i wear means i'm supporting some evil corporation. its frustrating. i'm tired of being barraded by voices saying: you're not sincere enough! you can't wear that just because you think it looks good! you have to mean something....and it has to be something i agree with!!!

same with music etc. you can't like that just because you like it! you're obviously trying way too hard to be cool. thank god i don't know many individuals that honestly feel this way or i might go crazy. this 'art culture' is so judgemental. i'm sure everyone has already figured this out and i have too i just need to comment. this is good and that is bad and if you don't like this, well, obviously you're not 'in the know'. i feel i'm in constant competition or something. i want to just duck out! i lose! whatever, i'm over it! sometimes i really just want to duck out of life all together. be happy in my weird hidden little cabin, where i have wifi(to order more books etc) and all i do all day is listen to music and read and watch movies and draw and create. and i want to be alone there at least for a while. i'm just so tired of fighting to keep my head above water. i'm done, let me sink. i just want a little place, nothing special to anyone but me. i would decorate it (with urban outfitters and i wouldn't feel bad!) i'd only have dishes for me and one guest. a coffee table.......it would be a living room/bedroom. i wish i could win a million dollars. that what i would do with it and then i'd go to various art schools learning painting, sculpting, throwing, singing, drawing, piano(?), acting, philosophy, any and everything.

thank god. i have a dream again. why am a by myself though?

please dont worry, chris is the only one for me. i love him, how sad is it that we're having such a hard time immediately before the wedding? we are sad and arguing all the time right before our wedding. it hurts my heart. if only we were just excited and happy........i'm just worried about debt and loans and everything. yuck. fucking wedding. now i know what they mean when they say they want to get married but not have a wedding.....but me being the ridiculously feminine thing i am could never pass up being a blushing bride. i hope its worth it. can't wait to finish my dress and try it on. its so beautiful. having it on the dress form reminds me how excited about it i really am. i was worried for a while that it wouldn't live up to what i dreamed, but i know it will now.

wow, talk about wandering post...........sorry, i'm a very stream-of-consciencous kinda gal.
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(no subject) [Jul. 21st, 2008|09:37 pm]
danaealexandra
what's at the center of your world?
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(no subject) [Jul. 15th, 2008|02:33 pm]
danaealexandra
just so everyone knows my alter-ego's name is Beatrice Overkill.
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(no subject) [Jul. 14th, 2008|04:54 pm]
danaealexandra
i have three things to justify my love of moulin rouge:

1. nicole kidman

2. academy award for best costume design

3. david bowie covering nat king cole

so suck it!

besides how could i NOT love this?
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sex [Jul. 1st, 2008|02:29 pm]
danaealexandra
[music |queens of the stone age-make it wit chu]

i've been avoiding deciding where i stand on stripping from a feminists  point of view, like is it empowering or degrading? but i've finally decided. i think its empowering. yeah there's always going to be those disgusting dude drooling after you, but so what? beauty can be power (right nomi?). a woman feeling sexy is fun. sex is fun. women shouldn't be made to feel they're "used" or "unclean". nor should they be made to feel they're unworthy because of bullshit christian ideals. people should take all the happiness they can possibly get. stripping is just a job. whether it makes people feel good or bad completely depends on the situation. in the situation that a woman feels she is powerful and sexy i think she should go for it and not be held back by the idea that if she expresses her sexuality she's a slut. i guess what i'm saying is some things are good for some people but not others.

this is a touchy subject i may be wrong. my main issue is i don't like the idea of people being raised to think sex is evil or bad or dirty or whatever.
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(no subject) [Jul. 1st, 2008|12:07 pm]
danaealexandra
had a vivid dream last night after watching the movie "where the heart is" (mini plot: 16 year old natalie portman is pregnant and aspires to be a professional photographer).

i had a baby girl. i didn't know what to name her so i named her something retarded and then remembered i wanted to name her astrid and was freaking out because i needed to rename her since i'd changed my mind. as it turned out i had already had a baby boy about as recently as physically possible. which was sweet because chris and i ideally want two kids a boy and a girl right in a row. anyway. it turned out i hadn't fed my baby girl because i forgot. and i plan to breast feed but fed her a bottle and was disappointed so i tried to breast feed her but i sucked. i couldn't hold onto her right, it was impossible. and then i was walking around or something and i couldn't lift her because i was too weak. i couldn't carry my babies because their tiny little bodies were too heavy. i would just slowly collapse. and i'd be terribly embarassed/sad because i was nealy dropping my babies on the head. and i at one point my mom did. she dropped the girl and her face was all crazy and folded and it was terrible and she was like "what? who cares, she's fine."

anyway, i think my brain is telling me i'm ill equipped to have a baby just yet.
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(no subject) [Jun. 25th, 2008|04:20 pm]
danaealexandra
I need to start running asap or i'm gonna be HUGE. i sit at work all day and snack.

chris and i aren't fighting but things are weird. we're having little random stupid fights, like, every night. we havent had sex in ages partly due to the arguing and partly due to me being retarded about remembering to take my birth control. so things are awkward. he feels unloved because of my creepy distaste for sex.

blegh
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(no subject) [Jun. 24th, 2008|02:03 pm]
danaealexandra
[l'air de danae est... |blahblah]
[music |Code Seven - Alt. Wave]

i got a job!
i'm a "graphic design assistant" at vision system full time baby!
emotionally:

so basically my moods are ridiculous. i would really worry about bi-polar disorder except i've NEVER had the manic part of the manic depressive. its just ok and then worse. the thing that really bothers me is how random and sporadic it all is. i have gobs of time to think at work. so far i've been doing mindless computer tasks again and again and again. but thats ok i'm getting paid. i've decided i really, really want to be able to sing. i always have but i never pursued it for real. I emailed a woman at the minot area council of the arts about vocal lessons. looks like at the college will be my option. (too bad i didin't do this when daddy might have paid, oh well) my goal is to sing like doris day, specifically The Very Thought of You by Doris Day or Half As Much by Rosemary Clooney. this was inspired by my envy of keira knightley (who actually had to learn to sing for her film "the edge of love"). view the trailer:
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and her singing:
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its a little high pitched for me but i love the overall concept. basically i want to be a female michael buble.

i've also discovered i'd like to major in one of these areas...

Fine Art (probably not just want to take many classes in this area)-figure drawing/painting from life etc.
Costume Design-self explanatory (couture dress making?)
Photography-dito
Illustration-comic book drawing
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My Celebrity Look-alikes [Jun. 10th, 2008|03:58 pm]
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MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celebrity - Collage - Morph

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MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celebrity - Collage - Morph

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MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celeb - Collage - Morph

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(no subject) [Apr. 8th, 2008|06:40 pm]
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we just realized that bush is ACTUALLY doing something to improve the illegal immigrant problem.

he's making the united states shitty!

that way they won't want to come here!

GENIUS.

yay!
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my ideal future [Mar. 30th, 2008|12:00 pm]
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i live in a fairly warm place, a medium sized townish-city thing...chris and i live in a small but comfortable apartment, the landlady is sweet and old and lets us paint the walls pretty colors to match the decor(!) i will have a sewing room and a painting/messy art studio......(yes two separate rooms each with a window) oh and a dark room, but that can be in the bathroom. i will have a chaise lounge in the sewing room, for chris to hang out on when i'm sewing my beautimus things. i'll go to art school/be a photographer (freelance style) and i'll a photographer's assistant  for money. chris will find some job that pays well has good hours and isn't ridiculously painful/go to school to be a pilot/turbo charger specialist. yep, i'll be happy taking photos.....painting sweet crazy realistic paintings from life(!) and making ridiculously unecessarily accurate costume reproductions for my own amusement.
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(no subject) [Mar. 27th, 2008|07:58 pm]
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not doing very well.

effed up a job for jess(shit!)

possibly might not graduate high school?

can't bear existence; however, is not suicidal?

feeling weird and shitty

not knowing why

wanting to fuck myself up in a more normal way......(as opposed to dropping out in a round about sort of way)

can't wait for everyone to blame that on chris

i'm running low on things to blame myself on

first it was my shitty periods...next came the pills to fix that....next came the pills to undo the other ones....then came new ones for other reasons.....then came being off of those.......it never ends

if only i was either fucked up enough for it to be an excuse or not fucked up enough for it to hurt me so much.

there's too much to do all the time and i'm ALWAYS too tired.


i can't remember not feeling guilty
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(no subject) [Feb. 1st, 2008|08:35 pm]
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[music |radiohead]

Her green plastic watering can
For her fake Chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth.
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself.
It wears her out, it wears her out.

She lives with a broken man
A crackpot of stouring youth
Who just crumbles and burns.
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins.
And it wears him out, it wears him out.
It wears him out, it wears him out.

She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love.
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run.
And it wears me out, it wears me out.
It wears me out, it wears me out.

And if I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time, all the time.
Oh, oh.
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(no subject) [Feb. 1st, 2008|12:32 am]
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Photobucket
photo by chris brown
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(no subject) [Jan. 22nd, 2008|11:28 pm]
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so, heath ledger died today. i'm pretty much depressed about it.(weird?!) obviously i didn't know him, but when i found out i got the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach, i thought it was a joke. how horribly sad, he has a little daughter...they don't know if it was a suicide or not, but it sounds like it. i feel like such a lame-o for letting it bother me so much. god, what's with people dying lately? that zach kid from williston (i didn't know him either but i was fighting tears at the show when his band played the song he wrote). i've been so untouched by death in my life that its just completely shocking when it happens, its really scarey.
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(no subject) [Jan. 14th, 2008|10:04 pm]
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gigungus post, sorry [Dec. 1st, 2007|12:22 am]
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i'm afraid i'm too impatient to make any sort of cohesive story about these...
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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2007|11:45 pm]
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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2007|08:50 pm]
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"Pretty sure Danae is a lesbian."
-Chris
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homcoming [Nov. 1st, 2007|12:31 pm]
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homecoming '07!
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(no subject) [Oct. 31st, 2007|10:35 am]
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this is my dad's baby. ^

susan is due in 4/24/08!


weirdness!
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(no subject) [Oct. 12th, 2007|09:26 pm]
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BABY NAMES!


Astrid Alessandra Boyko

Ramses Rourke Boyko

Elias Patzner

Bella Patzner

<3!!!
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(no subject) [Sep. 19th, 2007|07:41 pm]
danaealexandra
um...

http://www.codemylayout.com/myspace-layouts/preview.php?id=L673472392

holy crap, does anyone have this photograph of chris and i? because i'm like, 98% certain this is us?! (WEIRD) chris' sister heather found it.
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(no subject) [Aug. 27th, 2007|04:02 pm]
danaealexandra
queens of the stone age lead singer/guitarist comments on people using the term, "stoner rock" to describe their music:

"The term sucks. The only element of the audience I want to get rid of is the shirtless, sweaty, maxi-mullet jock dudes. We want sex to bleed into the music. At our shows, we want to see half boys and half girls in a utopian world, dancing and drinking."


during the song "feel good hit of the summer" for the first few verses he sang what they really are and for the next ones he sang "everyone knows you dance like you fuck, you dance like you fuck, you dance like you fuck."

during "do it again" he sang "we fuck so tight" instead of "fit so tight" and he predicted that everyone in the audience was going to "get laid" that night.

pretty funny.

good times were had.

rough crowd...but not to bad.
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